SOMETIMES....I JUST DO NOT WANT TO GO ON LIVING.....BUT I MUST KEEP ON LIVING....NO MATTER WHAT!

IT  ALWAYS  SEEMS  THAT  JUST  WHEN  I  THINK  AND  EVEN BELIEVE THAT  WHEN  THINGS  START TO REALLY IMPROVE....I'M  ALWAYS  SLAPPED....KNOCKED  BACK  DOWN  WITH A WHOLE BUNCH OF NO  GOOD HOOLIGAN  LOSERS! IT  HAPPENS  ALL  THE  TIME....I  CAN'T  EVEN  GO  ON  FACEBOOK....WITHOUT  A  BUNCH  OF  PUSSY  SEEKING  DESPERATE  PIMPS  OUT  LOOKING  FOR  BITCHES  ANYMORE!  IT'S  THAT  HELLA  DANGEROUS  DESPERATE....OF  A  RATIO  OF  EVERY  ONE  WOMAN....TO  EVERY  DESPERATE  DOZEN  MEN....AND  MOST  OF  THESE  MEN  ARE  LOOKING  FOR  WIVES  AND GIRLFRIENDS! IN WHICH  I  AM  NOT  ONE  BIT  INTERESTED  IN  ONE  DAMNED  BIT....DUE  TO  MY  HEALTH  AND  MY  PREMATURE  AGING! I'M  FEELING  MORE  LIKE  AN ELDERLY WOMAN  OF  PAST  ONE  HUNDRED  YEARS....THAN  AGE  57  AS  OF  THIS  WRITING....BECAUSE  OF  WHAT  I'VE  ENDURED  WITHIN  THESE PAST TEN PLUS YEARS AGO.....ESPECIALLY  DURING THE PAST YEAR AND A HALF DURING THIS PANDEMIC ; DECEMBER 2020 TO  NOW...LONG STORY....AND  BECAUSE OF WHAT I'VE ENDURED....MY  HEALTH HAS GONE FROM BAD TO WORSE....THAT  I'VE BEEN  SUFFERING FROM CHRONIC  DEPRESSION...THAT  SOMETIMES....I'VE  THOUGHT  ABOUT  DOING  THE  UNTHINKABLE....AND  JUST  ENDING  IT  ALL....BUT...I FEEL  THAT  I  HAVE  SOME  VERY  IMPORTANT  DESTINY  TO  FULFILL....SOME  UNFINISHED  BUSINESS  TO  REALLY  TAKE  CARE  OF....BUT....THERE  ARE  STILL  SOME  OBSTICLES  IN  MY  WAY....AND  THESE  OBSTICLES  MUST  BE  DEALT  WITH  NO  MATTER  WHAT!  THERE'S  NOT  ONE  DAY  HOW  I'VE  BEEN  PRAYING  TO  GOD  TO  JUST  TAKE  ME  AWAY....FROM  ALL  THIS  INTO  A  MUCH  BETTER  PLACE....A  MUCH  BETTER  ENVIRONMENT   AWAY  FROM  ALL  THIS  BULLSHITTING  NEGATIVITY....PERHAPS....IT'S  JUST  NOT  MY  TIME  JUST  YET....STILL....HOW  I  LONG  TO  GO  ( BACK ) TO "MY TRUE HOME"...YET....STILL...I  WAIT....YET...I  MUST  STAY  STRONG....NO  MATTER  WHAT....I  WILL  ALWAYS  HOLD  ON  TO  HOPE   AND  MUCH  BETTER  DAYS  AHEAD!  AS  FOR  THESE  DESPERATE  MEN ON  FACEBOOK.....MY  TRUE  CONVENT....AWAITS  ME....FOR  I  WON'T  BOW  DOWN  TO  ANYONE....MAN   NOR  WPMAN....FOR  I  HAVE  BEEN  BROKEN  ABUSED  AND  DEFILED  BY  GODLESS PEOPLE  WITH  NO  SOUL  WHAT-SO-EVER!  AND  YET....STILL  I  AWAIT  FOR  MY  TRUE  HOME COMING  INTO  THE  PROMISED  LAND....FOR  I  ALREADY  KNOW  THAT  MY  TIME  IS  DEFINITELY  COMING  SOON....BECAUSE  I  AM  WORN  OUT  TIRED  AND  CANNOT  TAKE  IT  ANYMORE!🙏🙏🙏🙏💓💕💖💗💘🙏🙏🙏🙏

EVERY DOG HAS IT'S DAY....AND KARMA HAS A FUNNY, STRANGE WAY OF EVENING THE SCORE!

EVERY DOG HAS IT'S DAY....AND KARMA HAS A FUNNY, STRANGE WAY OF EVENING THE SCORE....INDEED....I'M JUST WAITING FOR THE FEATHERS TO FLY....IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME,ANYWAYS....THOUGH THINGS ARE TAKING LONGER THAN USUAL...I CAN WAIT....JUSTICE SHALL BE MINE...😱💩😱💩😱💩WILL DEFINITELY HAPPEN....IT'S JUST AS MATTER OF TIME...ANYWAY....

I'M UNSTOPPABLE...INDEED!

Ô souverain, ô juge, ô père

 

Franco Corelli as Rodrigo

in Jules Massenet's Le Cid Ah! tout est bien fini. Mon beau rêve de gloire, mes rêves de bonheur s'envolent à jamais! Tu m'as pris mon amour, tu me prends la victoire, Seigneur, je me soumets! O souverain, ô juge, ô père, toujours voilé, présent toujours, je t'adorais au temps prospère, et te bénis aux sombres jour. Je vais où ta loi me réclame, libre de tous regrets humains. O souverain, ô juge, ô père, ta seule image est dans mon âme que je remets entre tes mains. O firmament azur, lumière, esprits d'en haut, penchés sur moi, c'est le soldat que désespère, mais le chrétien garde sa foi. Tu peux venir, tu peux paraître, aurore du jour éternel. O souverain, ô juge, ô père! Le serviteur d'un juste maître répond sans crainte à ton appel, ô souverain, ô juge, ô père! Ah! It's all over. My sweet dream of glory, my dreams of happiness have gone forever! You have taken my love from me, you take victory from me, Lord, I bow to your will! Oh Lord, oh Judge, oh Father, always indistinct, yet always present, I have adored You in happy times, and blessed You in the dark days. I go wherever your law calls me, free of all human regrets. Oh Lord, oh Judge, oh Father, Your image alone is in my soul which I submit into Your hands. Oh heavens blue and shining, spirits on high, descend upon me, it is the soldier who despairs, but the believer maintains his faith. You can come, you can appear, dawn of the eternal day. Oh Lord, oh Judge, oh Father! The servant of a just master answers Your call without fear, Oh Lord, oh Judge, oh Father! Translation found on: http://everything2.com/title/O+Souverain

KALI MAAS WILL; 12/ 12 / 2021 SUNDAY EVENING

 Prayer for Revenge😱💩😱💩😱💩

Santa Muerte,
I Summon You,
Santa Muerte,
I Invoke You,
to Give Me Justice,
Justice Against My Enemies,😱💩
Justice Against Those That Hurt and Harm Me,
Santa Muerte,
Hear My Cries,
Punish My Enemies,😱💩
As Only You Can Punish Them,
Santa Muerte,😱💩
You Know I Am Not an Evil Person,
This Is a Problem Only You Can Fix,
Use Your Sickle to Cut Down My Enemies,😱💩
As They Had Me Pushed Down to the Ground,
and You Gave Me a Hand to Stand Back up,
Cut Them to the Ground,
Santa Muerte,😱💩
Thank You for Your Protection,😱💩
Thank You for Your Help,
Thank You for Hearing My Cry.😱💩😱💩

Amen😱💩😱💩😱💩